Ace of Cups

Blagh, I'm sick with something and can taste mucus on the back of my throat CONSTANTLY. I've tasted it consistently for the past week or so but it's never been this bad. Ew. I blame my stupid boyfriend for getting sick all the time and bringing the illness home. I'm not going to give up kissing, so he has to work on not getting sick. That's the way things work.

I drew another ace today while I was sipping my raspberry black tea. Unlike most days when I draw the card as soon as I wake up, then write an entry just before I go to sleep, I'm going to try to do this thing right away. It's good to get things out of the way, even if you feel like bottled crap. Plus, it's helping me put off scooping the litter box and cleaning the kitchen. The Ace of Cups probably isn't about avoidance, though, as most aces tend to be active and go-getting cards. Since it's a Cup, I'm thinking that it's going to have something to do with emotions and matters of the heart, and by that virtue less active than, say, a Sword or a Rod. Free pass to plumbing the depths of my inner self, ahoy! See, now I can't do the dishes. My tarot card says I should spend the day in self-examination.

It looks like a positive card, with the sun rising out of the top of a beautiful goblet, which is standing on the water of a lily pond. I love water lilies, so already it's shaping up to be a nice pull from the deck. Upon looking it up, it appears that I was correct in my assumption (yay!); the traits of the Ace of Cups are emotional force, intuition, intimacy, and love. This card is in indicator that the seeds of emotional understanding have been planted in a person's life, and that if they are nurtured some revelation can be reached, either inner as in peace with oneself, attraction, or intuitive knowledge, or outer as in an opportunity, encounter, or synchronous event. I guess that you could call it the beginning of love. It's a symbol of possibility.

When it appears, you're supposed to look at how the energy of the card could work in your own life. Love is the essence of this card. It may not be romantic love, because love can come to you in all sorts of ways. Personally, I think that looking at this card as a pure symbol of romance is really limiting. It wants you to be loving, to forgive, to set aside anger, to nurture, to trust what comes from your heart. Isn't that nice?

As with most matters of the heart, I'm standing on shaky ground. For me, love is wrapped up in all sorts of pain, and I think this card is telling me that it might be time to let go of this pain completely. I've got a good life in love right now. The Ace of Cups says that love doesn't always go hand in hand with pain. And, even if it does, wasn't it worth it?

Yeah, actually. I think it was.