Five of Pentacles

This... is an extremely negative card. And now that I've reached the end of my day, I can tell you exactly what it meant for me. But first, the analysis.

The Five of Pentacles' keywords are not encouraging: hard times, ill health, and rejection. On the face, two figures, wrapped against the cold, trudge through the snow under the brightly-lit window of a church, excluded and destitute. Though the window is beautiful, the harsh realities of the world outside can't be glossed over by pretty things. These people are utterly without.

The card reminds us what it means to be poor. Mostly, it's an economic card, and can nearly always be applied to the monetary situation of the learner. I certainly don't need a card to tell me that I'm poor; I live it every day, and I'm grateful that I'm able to have as much as I do. If not for my boyfriend, I'd be waiting tables again instead of building up experience to a job that won't make me want to kill myself. I exaggerate. I would never hurt myself. but some nights I contemplated violence on certain customers. But I digress. Just as often, it represents poor health and social rejection. Both represent a lack of what we need to function happily as people, and a lack of health can be just as devastating to one's well-being as being rejected by a friend. The big keyword to this card, I think, is lack.

My boyfriend and I have been getting sick again. I think that's part of what the card is telling us. But my boyfriend came home from running a few errands today more depressed than he's been in a long time. Being sick is getting him down, and having too much work means he can't do anything but work. I spent some time talking to him and convinced him to take a break, but he's feeling the lack of health and free time very strongly, and I think this is part of the reason the card showed up. When he's lacking something, I guess I am as well.

It's not all bad though. The church, so close to the dejected couple, is a symbol that all things pass in their own time. So even though we are both suffering from lack of money, friends, and health, things will get better in the future. That time should be close at hand.