Ten of Pentacles

Affluence. Permanence. Following convention. The family at market, standing under an archway in which ten golden coins are embedded. Wealth is theirs. For them, it's time to spend what they've earned.

I'm reposting this description because, for me, it's wildly apt:

"When we achieve material success, we naturally want it to last. This is the conservative, Establishment side of the Ten of Pentacles. Why rock the boat when life is fine just the way it is? In readings, this card often stands for convention - following established guidelines and maintaining the status quo. Fat cats are rarely radicals; they love tradition and the tried-and-true. Sometimes it is important to trust the known ways, but only when change is inadvisable.

The Ten of Pentacles is also concerned with permanence. Change is an unavoidable part of life, but constant change is uncomfortable. We need stability and the chance to work for a secure foundation in life. In readings, this card may be telling you to concentrate on the long-term. Work toward a lasting solution. Now may be the time to settle down and make the arrangements that will work for you far into the future."

Though I wish that I drew this card because it's hinting that I will come into a great fortune very soon, I think that it's getting at what I reposted here: change is coming my way, and I need to bend it so that it contributes to a good future. I start my new volunteer job on Wednesday, and I'm scared that I'll have too much responsibility too suddenly. As much as I complain about my stationary life, I love having no obligations to anyone but myself. Like a cat, I guess, in a way. I've never been able to deal well with having responsibility or having to live up to other people's expectations. I always fear that I'll fail. It's unpleasant, and it usually causes me to hate whatever job I'm doing at the time. And with that logic, like a snake, I've just eaten my own tail.

This card really couldn't have come at a better time. For me, it means that volunteering will lead to the future I'm planning for, and that it is a good idea to start work in this direction, even if I'm terribly nervous about it. So wish me luck, anyone who's reading this. This week, with one tiny step, I start my future.