Eight of Cups

It's a damn depressing card, I'll tell you that. The image on it lets you know that what's coming isn't pretty, too, showing a cloaked figure heading off alone into the night, eight cups stacked behind him and an empty road ahead of him. Strangely, the night sky is white instead of black, and the departing man's cloak has become the road. Without checking on the meaning, I can see loneliness, weariness, a long and arduous journey, or perhaps a choice to leave it all behind.

I hit on two of the keywords, at least. Weariness, moving on, and search for a deeper meaning are the words that can help pinpoint the meaning to this card. It's about the approaching ending. To what, is unclear. It could apply to relationships, to friendships, situations, or ways of life.

I'm having trouble putting this into words, so once again, I'm turning to my main source for help.

"Moving on can mean a physical change such as leaving a job, location or relationship. It can also mean an inner change - releasing old patterns, especially those that have dominated our thoughts and emotions... Sometimes moving on can mean searching for a deeper truth or reality. One day we wake up and realize that we have been asleep in our own lives - living a dream that no longer satisfies.

Some changes can be wearying. Endings are not always easy. One of the signs of a readiness to leave is lack of energy. When you feel tired and dispirited, you know that something is wrong, and it's time for a new direction. Reexamine your life and your priorities. You will find where in your life you need to move on."

This last paragraph does ring true. I'm tired and dispirited a lot of the time. I don't know where to go or what to do, and everything seems worthless. I need to get out of this situation. I need to get a job, start leaving the apartment, and get some friends. As long as I feel like a moon circling around the planetary body of my partner, I'm not going to be happy again.

I need to get a life.